6.27.2006
I really hope he comes through and pays me back the $1000 he owes me, along with child support, which he said he would start paying when she is born.
That $1000 is one more month of rent and food. One more month I can breastfeed her and have her at home. Day care. What another woozy. It is very hard to find day care for infants. I really hope it happens. I will put her on waiting lists as soon as I get to Vancouver. I stress about this every day. Finding an affordable one bedroom apartment. Finding subsidized day care. I would never be able to afford that unless it was covered. And say I do get day care...great! Then I have to find a job. A job that will cover:
$800--one bedroom
$250--food
$300--baby expenses
$150--laundry
$100-transportation
$200-- my expenses (including babysitting if I feel like having one night a month where I actually do something)
$150-bills
Total: $1950
I get EI paternity until Feb. 24 2007..My EI is $1400 a month. The maximum.
yeah. So you can imagine how stressed I am right now.
What to do after March? I feel sick thinking about the future. I wake up in the middle of the night and I cry for hours.
12:05 PM
6.20.2006
Walked, or waddled, on the black path behind Leslie Thomas Junior High. A kid with fuzzy long hair propped his forearm over the fench. Smoking a Player's.
Below him, his be-bop friend, short, with his bike, smoking. He says, "She told him she'd give him a blowjob" as I walk by.
Silence.
"Heeeeeeeeeello," says a girl's voice on the other sidee of the fence. "Pregnant lady. Walking by."
That made me smirk.
Like I don't know about blowjobs.
10:11 PM
I really hope he comes through and pays me back the $1000 he owes me, along with child support, which he said he would start paying when she is born.
That $1000 is one more month of rent and food. One more month I can breastfeed her and have her at home. Day care. What another woozy. It is very hard to find day care for infants. I really hope it happens. I will put her on waiting lists as soon as I get to Vancouver. I stress about this every day. Finding an affordable one bedroom apartment. Finding subsidized day care. I would never be able to afford that unless it was covered. And say I do get day care...great! Then I have to find a job. A job that will cover:
$800--one bedroom
$250--food
$300--baby expenses
$150--laundry
$100-transportation
$200-- my expenses (including babysitting if I feel like having one night a month where I actually do something)
$150-bills
Total: $1950
I get EI paternity until Feb. 24 2007..My EI is $1400 a month. The maximum.
yeah. So you can imagine how stressed I am right now.
What to do after March? I feel sick thinking about the future. I wake up in the middle of the night and I cry for hours.
12:05 PM
6.20.2006
Walked, or waddled, on the black path behind Leslie Thomas Junior High. A kid with fuzzy long hair propped his forearm over the fench. Smoking a Player's.
Below him, his be-bop friend, short, with his bike, smoking. He says, "She told him she'd give him a blowjob" as I walk by.
Silence.
"Heeeeeeeeeello," says a girl's voice on the other sidee of the fence. "Pregnant lady. Walking by."
That made me smirk.
Like I don't know about blowjobs.
10:11 PM
